What is the lesson connected to why I keep ending up here again and again?
I guess, it's time to admit I've been running, but somehow I keep ending up in the same "place" (i.e stressful job, toxic relationships, empty, and exhausted) over and over. I finally ask myself not why am I here, but "what is this teaching me?"
I left because I was afraid; afraid of rejection, not fitting in, not being fun anymore. I was insecure, running, and broken. So consumed in this never ending cycle, I thought I should leave.
I constantly asked myself, "am I ever going to be unstuck?"
Until I learned, how you leave matters!
It took a while to realize, you are not suppose to leave the same way you came in.
What am I suppose to be doing here?
Who am I suppose to be becoming? . . there's got to be a reason I am here again. There is something I am suppose to be taking away from this.
There is a lesson to learn as to why I went back in the first, second, well fifth place.
It never dawned on me that I should fix how I left. But instead, leave properly. Leave with strategy, integrity, my confidence back, knowledge, and tools.
This time I grasping on to the tools & strategies to beat this cycle, put an end to the limiting beliefs, depression, toxic traits, and generational curses.
This has to be the last time I show up this way again. Quite frankly, I don't want to keep returning here. Who I am suppose to be becoming is a result of this circumstance.
I am taking the steps to where I am suppose to be, and whom I am suppose to become so I dont show up how I use to! This time will be the last time I am oppressed this way again.